Britney Spears Reveals She ‘Probably Won’t Perform Again’ Due To Trauma Of Conservatorship

12/09/2022 23:08

Britney Spears has been sharing her side of the story when it comes to her conservatorship and everything it entailed. Now, she's revealed that the trauma of her experience might stop her from ever performing again. Credit: VALERIE MACON/AFP/Getty Images Credit: Kevin Winter/Getty Images Britney Spears recently opened up about her experiences during her conservatorship in a video that was posted on her fan forum exhale.breatheheavy.com. “I am here honestly just to open up to others and try to shed light on whether anyone has ever been through difficulties,” Britney shared.“Honestly, I haven't shared this openly either because I've always been afraid of judgment and definitely the embarrassment of the whole period and skepticism and cynical people.” Britney explained that she was in her conservatorship for about 15 years, beginning when she was 25. She said that her friends were trying to reach out to her at that time, but because of her father she was unable to understand what was happening. Britney then revealed that she worked with her father in order to obtain medication for herself, but it is unclear if she was fully aware of the gravity of the situation. “I literally spoke with a British accent to a doctor to prescribe my medication and a little later there was an exchange team at my house,” the pop star explained. “ I remember that my mother's best friend and my two friends had a slumber party the night before they held me on a stretcher and, again, none of that made sense.” Credit: Ethan Miller/Getty Images The singer said that the paparazzi frenzy around her during this time was one of the craziest things. Although she didn’t see the harm in “playing chase” with photographers, everyone else felt that it was bad for her. Britney then said that when she was first taken to a hospital, there were more than 200 paparazzi outside of her home. Britney added that she was not using drugs or alcohol during that time, but through her father’s abuse, she was unable to really have a sense of what was real and not. She explained that her dad was extremely harsh on all of her siblings by recounting a story from her brother’s days as a soccer player. After the conservatorship began, Britney said she worked on How I Met Your Mother and then went right into her Circus album. She explained that she was working non-stop while also being forced to go to the gym and being called “fat” by those around her. “I never remember feeling so demoralized and they just made me feel like nothing and I went along with it because I was scared,” she said. Britney has since shared that the trauma of his experience might mean she'll never perform again. In the caption of a now-deleted Instagram post, featuring an image of herself naked in bed, Britney wrote: "I’m pretty traumatized for life and yes I’m pissed as f*ck and no I probably won’t perform again just because I’m stubborn and I will make my point." She went on to write, “I’d rather quit sh*t in my pool and shoot photos of myself in studios over working with the most offensive people in my life." “You think I’m being silly you try being up there and feeling like that,” Britney added. She signed off with a call-out to her father, writing: “Kiss my God damn mother f*cking ass you f*cking bastard." What do you think about Britney's latest update? Do you think we've seen the last of her performances? Britney Spears Deletes Instagram (Again) After Controversial Kevin Federline Videos Britney Spears’s has been caught up in another controversy on Instagram, this time involving her ex-husband Kevin Federline. It started after Britney shared some less-than-sweet assessments of her sons Sean and Jayden. In her now-deleted post, Britney shared that her sons were “hateful” to her. "It's hard for me to let go of things I truly love ... like my kids," the 40-year-old said. "The situation should have 100 percent been dealt with privately and definitely not online." Soon after, K-Fed shared a series of clips with a caption that read, “I can not sit back and let my sons be accused in this way after what they’ve been through. As much as it hurts us, we decided as a family to post these videos. This isn’t even the worst of it,” he continued. “The lies have to stop. I hope our kids grow up to be better than this.” In one video taken without Spears’s knowledge, the A-lister says, “This is my house. If I want to come in here and give you lotion for your face because it’s coarse … y’all better start respecting me, are we clear?” She continued on, “You all need to start treating me like a woman with worth,” adding, “I am a woman, okay, be nice to me, do you understand?” The second clip shows Spears in the passenger seat of a car repeating, “Have you lost your f***ing mind? Have you lost your f***ing mind?” Which presumably comes after her son went into a store without any shoes on. “I’m shocked as f**k with you and I don’t know what to do. And I’m scared of you because you’re weird because you’re going through puberty. And I don’t know what to say. But I do care more than you know,” she allegedly asserted. An Instagram account under the user @theshaderoom, shared these clips to their instagram feed. Immediately comments started flowing, in defense of the “Toxic” singer. “How dare she give her son lotion for his ashy face and want him to wear shoes in a public place of business when it’s cold. What was posting this supposed to prove? That she’s a good parent?” Musician and actress, Masika Kalysha, asserted. Many others were agreeing in the comments. “Sounds like normal parenting to me,” and “This man need to leave Brittany [sic] alone, I see no harm done here.” While many fans and friends of Spears were defending her during this time, her new husband Sam Asghari even had a few words of his own. The 28-year-old commented under the post, “I hope this is how she is with my future children when they act up,” followed by a series of clapping emojis. This definitely wasn’t the first time he ran to his wife’s defense, though. Recently, the model posted a lengthy statement to his Instagram story following K-Fed once again publicly speaking about the relationship his ex-wife has with their kids - assuring people they are avoiding her. “The boys are very smart and will be 18 soon to make their own decisions and may eventually realize the “tough” part wasn’t having a father who hasn’t worked much in over 15 years as a role model,” a brief excerpt from the message read. Amid all the backlash, Britney has deleted her Instagram (again). Britney took to Twitter to explain her Instagram absence. "I’m learning everyday is a clean slate to try and be a better person and do what makes me happy … yes I choose happiness today," she shared. "I tell myself every day to let go of the hurt bitterness and try to forgive myself and others to what may have been hurtful." The pop icon went on, "I want to be fearless like when I was younger and not be so scared and fearful. I pray there actually is truth to the Holy Spirit and I hope that spirit is with my children as well !!! Yes … I choose happiness and joy today!!!" What do you think of Britney's latest drama?